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I'm hoping I'll remember to be more active here than I was on LJ? Though this does seem unlikely, stranger things have happened, etc.


Things that have happened since last time I posted on LJ, unless I'm remembering wrong:

1- I finished my first year at my new school and I'm 2 semesters closer to finishing undergrad. Just three left to go! I went out with a bang, since I had some peanut-contaminated food at the dining hall and had to go to the hospital because of anaphylaxis. Arwyn and Hereeatthiskitten came and kept me company and a hospital visit is much better when it doubles as a due South watch party!

2- The course of steroids I had to take after said hospital visit sped up the slow-motion mental health trainwreck that was going on in the last semester, which is unfortunate, but also kind of a blessing. I was diagnosed with OCD, which is really obvious in retrospect but I didn't know about the moral scrupulosity sub-type and the majority of my compulsions are mental, so obviously other people don't see me doing them. Having the right diagnosis gives me a lot of hope for having the right treatment!

3. Today will be the start of my first week of intensive outpatient treatment. Monday-Friday I have three hours of treatment, plus homework to do between sessions. The closest program to home is in Sacramento, so I'm staying in the house the center owns during the week and coming home on weekends. I hate going new places, but I've really settled in here and I really like my housemates! Plus I get to take the train to and from Sacramento, and I looooove the train :)

3.5. The first week was primarily settling in and doing cognitive work, but this week will be the start of the exposures. ERP (exposure and response prevention) therapy is basically "purposefully put yourself in situations that make you feel bad, don't engage in your compulsions, and feel horrible until your body/brain gives up on the anxiety response" which is as rough as it sounds but it's also the most effective therapy for OCD. I'm simultaneously excited and horrified to get started. Also curious about how you can prevent yourself from doing mental compulsions, because they feel like something that just happens to me? I'm looking forward to learning about that.


4. Fannish stuff! I am actually doing it, though I haven't had the spare energy for awhile. I'm in the middle of writing the first draft of a fic I'm pretty excited about, though I got a little discouraged and lost steam on that one. I also started this school AU that was pestering me and became more ambitious than I meant for it to be. Then there's the very ambitious touch-starved!Fraser fic that I've only worked on in my head so far. Basically, all my projects have gotten kind of long and complicated. I'm hoping to polish off some older, less complex stuff and write some more drabbles/ficlets until I've got the spoons to work on those!

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Fandom Stocking is like my favorite thing ever. If you don't know about it, the actual description is in the link, but basically you make a list of things you like, both fannish and non-fannish, and you give each other little things. I did drable-y things last year (and probably will again) but people also do doodles or simple manips, or send rec lists or recipes or knitting patterns or whatever. It’s really fun and easy.
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I wish I knew how to do fanvids! I was listening to music on the bus yesterday and playing the Everything Is due South game, and I decided that Little Lion Man could be great for a vid where Ray K realizes how many times he's crossed the line with Stella post-divorce. I guess most of the vid would be examples of that and shots of him looking upset or pensive, but then the part that has the "aaah-aaaaaah-aaaaaaaaah" vocals and no percussion would be him thinking about how much he loved/loves her, especially with the shots of them dancing. I also think that one of the times where the beat goes "thunk! thunk! thunk!" (I have no idea how to express music in words) would be a good time for that bit in Strange Bedfellows where he's hitting the steering wheel. But alas, I have no vidding abilities! I don't even know how gifs work.
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 Unfortunately it was a nightmare, though it doesn't sound nearly as scary written down as it was in the dream itself. I feel like I ought to play with it and turn it into some kind of casefic, but I don't know if I could pull that off. I'm still trying to figure out formatting on this thing, so hopefully it'll be under a cut.




I usually go back to sleep and have vivid but plotless dreams after nightmares, and I had one of those with this one too. I was wondering around in a huge hotel/mall hybrid on a quest for Smarties. I kept getting lost, but it was annoying rather than stressful. I ran into Tatau, who was also looking for Smarties, and while I was wandering around trying to find my room, I also ran into Sea, who was in line at an ice cream place. I guess I was missing Canada and also craving sugar.
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 First of all, thank you! I'm so excited to see what you end up making!

I think it's probably apparent, but I feel like I should agknowledge that the prompt I'm most invested in is the first one (the d/s one). That said, I'll of course be delighted with whatever you end up going with! Any rating is fine, of course, though I will admit a preference for M or E fics.

So, likes and dislikes...

Likes:
  • Happy or at least hopeful endings (This is a big one for me. I have no problem with angst in the story, but it makes me too sad if it ends on an unhappy note.)
  • Cuddling or just being physically close to one-another
  • Comfort/caretaking
  • Domesticity
  • Character study
  • D/S (particularly sub!Erik)
  • Begging
  • Enthusiastic consent
  • Fluff
  • Family fics
  • Focus on a character's mindset
Dislikes:
  • Dub-con/non-con (This is another big one, though non-explicit references to/memories of this or pretty much any kind of trauma is alright)
  • Abuse (again, it's alright if this is non-explicit and in the past)
  • Humiliation

And I think that pretty much covers it! I'm not sure what the rules about this are, but as long as it's not against the rules, you can leave me an anonymous message on Tumblr if you have anything you'd like to ask me. My username is wagnetic there, too.
Thanks again! <3

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