Ugh

 Sooo I wasn't ready to go back to school as it turns out, and I decided to withdraw for the semester and get more treatment. While this is the thing I was most afraid of happening, it's the right choice. Being able to take care of myself/use basic life skills is definitely more important than finishing school sooner. It's very frustrating to be in this position though and I'm very sad to leave Portland. And it's scary not to know what's going to happen next, whether I'll be back at school next semester, etc. OCD sucks, y'all.